mikaeljohani

kemayoran

started reading nh. dini’s kemayoran. abandoned attempt. started thinking why she wrote her name that way. nh.

i went to plaza semanggi yesterday, walked around, gramedia, a&w, sox gallery, woku, oh la la for an overpriced aqua, that tiny magazine stand in the corner, then i started thinking, oh my god, (and i still don’t believe in god, i’ll have you know, not for anything, i just can’t be bothered devising an apologia for a half-arsed agnosticism), and i almost can’t believe it, (you’d better believe it, buddy !), i was actually extremely happy for long stretches of our doomed relationship.

sex is underrated, nobody ever says that anymore sure, sometimes i’d just like to have someone to hug in the backseat of a taxi putra on the way home, or out, as luck would have it but no luck! the lights on those abandoned buildings are cold they’ve been cold for a while, as coldContinue reading “celibacy is overrated”

flame trees

badai pasti berlalu, tapi kapan sedan impala merah muda, memadu kasih di kapnya kancing copot dari dadamu, boleh kusimpan?

usher

half an e at 8.30 and off we went to a wooden birdcage men half-raise whisky glasses to someone elses’ faces so bright! another half at 10 we can’t afford lulls in the eternal search for fun the things we look forward (to hate): the inevitable midnite fashion show on top of squeaky clean barContinue reading “usher”

gutted

it’s raining. again. i like it when it rains. or maybe i don’t. it’s nice, how the water slushes away all the dirt, rotting banana leaves, indomie wrappers, swallow sandals, off the streets and into the gutters. except there are no gutters, so they’re all on the streets. i’m in ciledug and i have toContinue reading “gutted”

crazy for jalan ciledug raya (but not that crazy)

it’s night. and i’m listening to magnetic fields’ 69 love songs vol. 2. tonight there was a mysterious body of water on the road in front of pasar cipulir. looked like an oil spill. or jeremy thomas’ hair. not much traffic on ciledug raya. the formula goes (commuting, going home): 5-7, better stay at plazaContinue reading “crazy for jalan ciledug raya (but not that crazy)”

heart and curios

Everytime he goes to the restaurant he would go to the dilapidated toilet with no toilet seat and take a piss standing up and stare at the LINDETEVES sign painted on the water tank. Or, more like L NDE I EVI S. The sign has been painted over so many times, presumably with the sameContinue reading “heart and curios”

jakartah kumuh tercintah

on a cloudy like like today i always think of this bit from a sitor situmorang poem: jakarta kumuh tercinta can’t remember which poem, but that’s the whole stanza. he being mr. coy modernist and all. where did you hide pound’s personae, eh? i can see it bulging out of yer shirt pocket! (it’s ‘belovedContinue reading “jakartah kumuh tercintah”

hamba

yah tentu, semakin kau menjauh aku akan semakin membabi buta menggoogle namamu sudah 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 Next sekarang kenapa kau umbar pesonamu ke technorati sementara dalam kamar kau hambar seperti peti mati ? * singalong dengan primavega