Ruminations – Page 8 – Divagyrations

kemayoran

started reading nh. dini’s kemayoran. abandoned attempt. started thinking why she wrote her name that way. nh.

it’s raining. again. i like it when it rains. or maybe i don’t. it’s nice, how the water slushes away all the dirt, rotting banana leaves, indomie wrappers, swallow sandals, off the streets and into the gutters. except there are no gutters, so they’re all on the streets. i’m in ciledug and i have toContinue reading “gutted”

crazy for jalan ciledug raya (but not that crazy)

it’s night. and i’m listening to magnetic fields’ 69 love songs vol. 2. tonight there was a mysterious body of water on the road in front of pasar cipulir. looked like an oil spill. or jeremy thomas’ hair. not much traffic on ciledug raya. the formula goes (commuting, going home): 5-7, better stay at plazaContinue reading “crazy for jalan ciledug raya (but not that crazy)”

heart and curios

Everytime he goes to the restaurant he would go to the dilapidated toilet with no toilet seat and take a piss standing up and stare at the LINDETEVES sign painted on the water tank. Or, more like L NDE I EVI S. The sign has been painted over so many times, presumably with the sameContinue reading “heart and curios”

jakartah kumuh tercintah

on a cloudy like like today i always think of this bit from a sitor situmorang poem: jakarta kumuh tercinta can’t remember which poem, but that’s the whole stanza. he being mr. coy modernist and all. where did you hide pound’s personae, eh? i can see it bulging out of yer shirt pocket! (it’s ‘belovedContinue reading “jakartah kumuh tercintah”

150 JUTA KREDO PUISI

150 juta bukanlah alat mengantarkan pengertian. Dia bukan seperti pipa yang menyalurkan lumpur. 150 juta adalah pengertian itu sendiri. Dia bebas. Kalau diumpamakan dengan kursi, 150 juta adalah kursi itu sendiri dan bukan alat untuk duduk. Kalau diumpamakan dengan pisau, 150 juta adalah pisau itu sendiri dan bukan alat untuk memotong atau menikam. Dalam kesehari-harianContinue reading “150 JUTA KREDO PUISI”

truth claim

i haven’t updated obnubilation for many reasons. most of them i don’t want to discuss with you. safe to say i’ve been away from life as i know it. i’m on an overgrown path edged with brambles, going nowhere. i don’t mind. i’ve been taking siestas in empty pasanggrahans, unkempt, deserted by travelers. no oneContinue reading “truth claim”

U.

it’s like no it’s not like yes he did that to me no break my heart yes i went for a long walk then my dog died who cares no i do but no this is depressing only if you think this is all real but it is who knows i’m gonna die unappreciated exceptContinue reading “U.”

The Latitudes of Homosocial Motility Within Heterosexual Desire in Matthew Lewis’s The Monk (Prose Version)*

i was reading the monk when i realised i was in paris with my mum. it was early morning, still dark, and she had already gone for her morning walk. she had been taking pictures of unemptied rubbish bins around champs-élysées and abandoned rent-a-bikes everywhere that she said look like dead bodies. “they used toContinue reading “The Latitudes of Homosocial Motility Within Heterosexual Desire in Matthew Lewis’s The Monk (Prose Version)*”

Laskar Pelangi Orba – a film studies thesis proposal at UvA, autumn ’09

Title: “LASKAR ORBA: Abjection Your Honour!: (police-)state-imposed self-hatred in Riri Riza’s later movies” Supervisor: Gratiagusti Chananya Rompas, MLitt Student name: Mikael Johani Student #: B6761CLQ Outline: – both Gie (2006) and Laskar Pelangi (2008) are about products of private (high)school systems, the former a student of Canisius College (CC), an elite Catholic school in JakartaContinue reading “Laskar Pelangi Orba – a film studies thesis proposal at UvA, autumn ’09”