mikaeljohani

going against the grain

of my own happiness not feeling A but saying B to please X and my own fatamorgana of heaven as it is on earth yr crooked middle finger love handles jutting out of yr bargain-basement mondays i luv yr thick ankles and the way u kept talking with indomie goreng hanging off the corner ofContinue reading “going against the grain”

à l’avant du château

ill think of u as the one that got away plenty of fish n chips in the sea but none like u i wdve pursued u in another life to the end of the earth and its myriad ramifications but not now when contentment outraces happiness yr quicksilver ankles not made for this sleepy régimeContinue reading “à l’avant du château”

charlie rose

to be as slim as a back dart to be as magnanimous as zampano to be as infested as piazza san marco waiting is important for the arts so is the desire for narrative passion for boredom to be francesco clemente in another life

pantone 292 housing: post apocalyptic*

post pantone 292 apocalyptic housing by lolipopsuper di dunia pasca apokaliptik. oleholeh pun ku tak punya, hanya keringat sedikit dingin di tangan. aku tak sempat pula pakai deodoran. tak sempat sikat gigi. tak sempat mandi. tak sempat melatih teknik ciuman batu asing laksana menhir. terpacak di perumahan masa kecil yang mati. semua pintu terbuka untukContinue reading “pantone 292 housing: post apocalyptic*”

hem

«Sometimes I think honesty is a technique, you know, Hemingway always talked about it, though he used the word «truthfully» instead—I don’t think he ever wrote «honestly», for obvious reasons, not to write anything «ghastly» like Orwell said could’ve been one, maybe not, Hem would never have listened to Georgie O.—but it’s such and integralContinue reading “hem”

RSL

In the morning the sun is blue Cold it’s early summer No one cares The cream sand has waited The whole of July A bad part of August Come it’s time Let’s dig Exit tunnels For hybernating beach towels.

alexa n drine

umurmu berapa, bulubulu rona semua terhempas, semua meranggas kamar kos yang panas, volume terkeras tetangga yang bona, panci yang merana

indonesian chicken ay

clean spring onions remove dirt more dirt the better the fresher the stalks will be slimy remove skin that looks dead worry not about the slime take the chicken out of the fridge flesh will be cold chicken grosses me out put on a plate sprinkle with one teaspoon salt one teaspoon freshly ground blackContinue reading “indonesian chicken ay”

index to first lines of the penguin book of modern american verse, selected with an introduction and notes by geoffrey moore, h-m

here lies a lady of beauty and high degree here where the wind is always north-north-east he stroked the cats on account of a specific cause i am riding on a limited express, one of the crack trains of the nation i do not know much about gods i hate my verses, every line, everyContinue reading “index to first lines of the penguin book of modern american verse, selected with an introduction and notes by geoffrey moore, h-m”

sakit hati

minggu dini hari. stadium. neken di rumah. – setengah enam pagi (masih minggu). bubur kamseng. plain bubur, ayam rebus, telur pitan, broccoli garlic, chinese tea. back to hotel. basian. setengah sepuluh. lapo ni tondongta, lapangan tembak senayan (mengejar goreng pertama sebelum dibikin inang-inang hkbp). sangsang, panggang, goreng, kuah sop, sayur, susu horbo putih, teh botolContinue reading “sakit hati”