pain of the day is in my right ear

i hit it repeatedly with a half-filled bottle of frestea green tea in a park where maids have their dates with contract builders

it was during a fight with my girlfriend im leaving her and i didnt know what else to say i didnt think she understood me so i just hit myself

its been happening too often thats one of the reasons why im leaving her

i thought it had never happened before but it had

i read my old emails and i did it sometime early 2004 when i was fighting with claire because i was leaving her

it must be some sort of penance for something i cannot help but do to women who care about me

im an ass and im lucky that im only half-deaf