Birthday letters #3 (The Blue Flannel Suit)

I saw my dead grandmother, naked
xxxlying on her side
xxxxxxwhere the cancer
started.
xxxOld men
xxxxxxwrapped her pale stomach
in white silk.
xxxThey struggled
xxxxxxwith the unexpected heaviness
of her corpse.
xxxShe was three hours dead
xxxxxxand already
I had to say goodbye.
xxxToo young to understand
xxxxxxtoo old to cry.
The only thing
xxxI could do
xxxxxxxwas turn
mildewed Koran tapes
xxxover
xxxxxxon the silver Toshiba.